Sunshin3

“I only wish i had the strength to show..”

A phrase adapted from the popular hit, Can’t Fight This Feeling by the Speedwagon.

I can’t explain the emotion i am experiencing except perhaps association with anger within. Is it even truly anger to begin with? I have begun questioning myself.

It’s illogical for me to be angry and i cannot tell or figure out the motivation that is driving this supposed anger.

The neglect? The expectation? Or the work? Or maybe the personal irritating phone calls today? Or is it simply pms?

I wish i knew and that would have made it a lot easier to deal with.

Fuck, he doesn’t know that i teared after my phone call with him. It is the frustration that i don’t know what i’m feeling anymore especially when i rationalise so many things.