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It’s very demoralising as a woman when you have problems achieving orgasm.

But that has been the case for me of late and it leaves me really frustrated because i lose my self-confidence in my ability to make my man happy.

After all, don’t all men want their women to reach the big O with their help?

I’m just grateful that he’s been very patient and understanding.

Perhaps what we need is to recreate the sexually charged times we had when we were on holiday or when we went drinking at Brix.

“The difficulty with marriage is that we fall in love with a personality, but must live with a character.
- Peter De Vries”

One of the greatest principles that I have learnt from Myles Munroe is to give men the respect they need as a male and to respect the decisions that he makes as a man of the household. It’s not easy when you’re so used to wanting things done your way because YOU think that it’s effective.

The classic example was the hooks but hey, I learn and that’s good.

It’s really thanks to books from Gary Smalley, John Trent, and Gary Chapman to name a few, that I’m here where I am and well, thanks to the relationship that I had with George too.

He was the catalyst that sparked the loss of my self-worth as a woman.

If not for him, I wouldn’t have gone seeking and would have probably waited till I was married and having problems.

I know that I would probably be seen as deluded because Old boy isn’t mine and implementing the principles that I have been taught would not have been advisable.

To that, I can only say that I am selfish. Hence, another reason why this post is password protected.

You have no idea that whenever I see Old boy, I am reminded of another important person in my life that is worth cherishing and loving. Nothing else matters more than his happiness and stability to me and I am committed to meeting his needs despite the irony.

I am sure he finds it weird too that I’m reading marriage counselling books because we’re not married and there’s no guarantee of anything.

Whilst that might be the case, I reiterate that I am being selfish and I think Old boy also knows that.

It has certainly not been easy trying to keep my expectations in check because Old boy is such a wonderful boyfriend. He honours me, makes me feel important in his life and treats me with such tenderness that it leaves me hungry for more. Living with him has just made it harder to let go.

The ever thoughtful one mentioned this before, “Do things for me only because you want to and not because you have to.”

And I want to improve my understanding of communication and relationships because I value you in my life.

A lot of things apart from work have been on my mind, the one being the most discernible, is actually on Him.

I find that one of the hardest challenges in life is to disbelieve God and His teachings.

Especially when you know that it works.

For you, for your life and for the ones you love.

Being simple has its drawbacks.

The biggest drawback being, you don’t really know what you want. Even when I thought I wanted to catch a movie over the weekend with him, I realize I was really much happier assisting him with his work.

Besides, it is a logical explanation:-

Less stressed boyfriend => Happier boyfriend => Effective communication between couple.

These days, it’s much easier to spot when something’s bothering him like this morning, when he woke up. He was awfully quiet unlike the times we talked while we cuddled in bed.

But I won’t probe because someone wise once told me this about men.

If they want to tell you, they will.

Now i know why Alexis left.

Even i can’t stand it too.

It tells a lot about the capability of people if they require a temp to help them despite already having help from their fellow colleagues.