Sunshin3

Coming back from the horror of my primary school teacher being technology-savvy especially when she doesn’t even know what’s a blackberry, i met my ex-colleagues for dinner at Vivo City yesterday evening.

It was meant to be a farewell dinner that kinda turned post-farewell and well, maybe not even farewell but never mind.

Of course the topic that embraced the evening was work since that was what joined all of us together in the first place.

It’s quite disheartening to hear that things have spiralled out of control after my departure and the lawyer who was supposed to replace me, cannot be depended on.

One would expect a lawyer to be able to juggle her multiple client files as well as be confident of her research but unfortunately, for the current situation, my successor cannot even craft a proper email to be sent to a client.

I know it’s not easy to review agreements, having tried my hand at one and spending more than two hours agonising over how terribly drafted it was, but some things are really common sense you know?

And honestly, with the proposed changes to the legal system, i really don’t know if it’s workable no doubt some of the recommendations are good.

I guess just wait and see how lor.

Even teachers these days try to be tech-savvy.

My primary school teacher somehow managed to obtain my msn address which means, she actually remembers me after more than nine years!

-.-”

And he snored obliviously while i continued crying in his arms.

Last night was the first time i cried during sex.

I’ve been stressed out of late by the changes in my work scope, by the increasing size of the breast lump, by the desire to make life more comfortable for him and I really wanted sex to alleviate the stress. Of course, being the cunt teaser that he always was, he wasn’t giving it to me and i got desperate to a point where the desire just went off.

That’s me.

Too much teasing and i don’t want to have it anymore.

Yet when he finally gave in, i was drying up and sex became painful for me. He wasn’t aware of the motivation of my desire because i knew that if i told him, i would break down and then, he’ll just spend the night comforting me which he already was doing so because we had a disagreement earlier.

And the disagreement was because of a purchase I made with good intentions and I have a feeling it’ll be the same scenario if I am going to go ahead with another purchase (which of course I will not).

Despite his critical side, i know he loves me deeply from his actions. He calls me regularly during the course of the day, he leaves the office earlier so that he can spend more time at home with me, he helps out with the housework, he gives me a massage whenever I need one, and he’s doing all these on top of his already very tight until cannot be tighter schedule.

Anyway, Old boy is smart lah. I didn’t have to tell him I was moody because he knows me inside out although I really feel lousy whenever I am moody because he’ll drop whatever he’s doing and focus on me and then I’ll start crying because he’s just so sweet!

I guess even the best of relationships have their instabilities.

Old boy’s question on commitment is a question echoed in many a hearts.

When a relationship ends by a choice of ours, what’s going to make the next relationship different from the rest? Sex? Chemistry? Similar interests?

I find a lot of things ironic in life.

We love routine yet routine equates to being boring which also implies a problem somewhat. However too much spontaneity makes it difficult for your partner to anticipate your thought process as well which also seemingly doesn’t bode well for any relationship.

Or is it plainly our expectations of what we REALLY want in a relationship?

Shouldn’t a relationship be about growth and a constant companion who loves you even if you don’t shave?

I guess perhaps, i’ll never really derive at an answer that i can be completely sold to.

And today, marks the last day of my leave that has been fully utilised either for work or for urgent errands.

Old boy and i have finally moved in proper to our new nest despite the earlier hiccups with our movers. Our new nest is a little smaller, a little nearer to town, a little more expensive as well but it’ll do for now.

A lot has happened when he was away and as i updated him with the current ongoings, he shared the same sentiments like anyone else.

“Extra money is good but don’t overdo it at the expense of your health.”

Other the surprising question on his commitment level, things are pretty much routine and back to normal.

The one thing that i really missed when he was away was staring and stroking his face.