Sunshin3

Can we go back to the days
Our love was strong.
Can you tell me how
A perfect love goes wrong.
Can somebody tell me
How to get things back,
The way they used to be.
Oh God, give me the reason,
I’m down on bended knee.

I had a talk with a close friend of mine given the recent developments.

As logical as we understand, there are only two ways about it. It’s either I win him back or I move on and I know that I have nothing with me to win him back.

If there’s one thing I learnt from a poker game, it is knowing when to cut your losses.

My only wish is for him to remain happy even after I’m gone. In the 17 months that we have been together, he knows that I have tried to keep him happy and I don’t want to see him miserable after June. He’s seen the best of me and I have learnt, through him, how to live with another person, learnt to love him even when I am upset and angry with him, learnt to tolerate and manage conflict, learnt virtually anything that is possible from learning through cohabitation.

Honestly, I don’t think we’ll be able to let go fully but I have moved on from being depressed to being melancholic.

He’s made the decision and I can only respect it. At the end of the day, how I feel is immaterial to the equation anymore.